As long as I’m fixated on this supposed red haired beauty, then every breakup I’ve been through has been the correct decision to make. I have a definiative goal, some specific person that I’m looking for where I can be selective and say “you fit, and you dont”. If my reality is actually to end up with a tiny blond girl or something, then maybe I’ve already passed the opportunity to meet her.
Was Stacy actually my Holy Grail? Was Katie? Cathy? Kelly? If I’ve already passed my opportunity, then life is lost and there’s no way to go back and fix it.
I like having direct and obvious signs in my life and there are NONE when finding your lifetime mate.
I’ll try to keep an open mind about future relationships, but I stay up late at night wondering if I didn’t give previous relationships enough of a chance. I’ve since learned about riding a relationship to a close. I can honestly say that my breakup with Courtney was the only breakup where I feel it was the absolute best choice we could have made.
I guess, I’d rather think that Goddess has given me a hint and that there’s something specific that I can look for. So when that time comes I’ll see someone and KNOW that she’s the person I need to work for.
I don’t know if this helps any, but I know how you feel. However, I do believe (and it is hard to believe, but I try) that if I messed up somewhere in the past, that everything happens for a reason and fate will work things out for me. Like, that person would show up later and I’d get another chance or something.
Everything will work for you eventually, Mark. It’s good to be thinking about these things (trust me, I think about them all the time.) Take care, and hopefully we can hang out next semester.
See you next year! 🙂
Dude, we totally would have killed each other after about a month. I don’t think you have to worry about that one. XD
My advice to you is to just stop looking. All of my relationships came to me when I wasn’t looking for them. It’s always been my theory that your true love will come to you when you least expect it. It’s worked for me so far, maybe it will work for you too. 🙂 Keep an open mind though. The person probably won’t look or act like exactly what you have in mind. But I think when you find her, you’ll know. 🙂
But hey, we got a new year coming. It’s a fresh start. A clean slate. Make the best of it! Happy New Year, and hang in there! 🙂
*sigh*
Impatience is your middle name. 🙂 Chill out, man. Accept that your lifemate might arrive in a way you don’t expect, at a time you don’t expect, and that you might not even know who she is yet. Maybe there are things that have to happen yet to prepare you for it. I seriously doubt, though, that God/dess would allow you to miss the opportunity, when it arises.
Happy New Year, Marcus. 🙂