Category: Moods
Confessions
I finally admited to Dave exactly why I hate people. I hate people because I hate myself. But then, its not that I hate myself all of the time. I made the anology of the internet. There are many great things about the internet that I love, but then there…
Another angry post
At first, I just could not believe that a casual fantasy had come true. Over and over i said to dave, “I just can’t believe this is happening.” Then within a week, I messed it up and it wasn’t happening. Now, there’s not even a fantasy. I will never think…
Do I use you?
Lately I’ve been wondering if i’m using my friends. First, I must know what it means to use someone. Is using a situation where you take without giving anything back? Or does using include situations where you trade? By “trade” I mean something like “You give me a good conversation…
Young Adult Angst
I have the distinct impression that i’m going to end up with someone simply because they can deal with me. I’m sure the number of women who can communicate with me and find some way to live a happy life with me are slim-to-nill. Sorry guys, just another, “Fuck me;…
The battle for Marc
I’m having this constant internal struggle. The calm, collected, and secure Marc versus the ever emotional, needy, shy and scared Marc. I thought i had this conflict worked out and that these two aspects were working together. I’ve noticed this tug of war again, though. WTF, stop messing with me…
tarot?
So I just gave myself a tarot reading in one minute. I was shuffling my deck and just directly asked them for their help in figuring out this situation… Two cards jumped out of the deck. Page of cups and Tempereance. The book that accompanies the cards says that the…
AV WEEK PROCLAMATION
This week was apparently A/V Week. Here’s the proclamation: The audiovisual industry is improving people’s lives through lifesaving technology; and AV equipment and services are used to protect our nation’s security through command and control facilities; and …millions of students on the K-12 level and in the collegiate setting are…