A late prayer of thanks.

Goddess, It is these random times of uneasiness that I find myself most appreciative to be alive. Even though I despise drama and all of the frustration that it causes, it is in these times that I remind myself what the purpose of my life is. I feel my purpose…
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Quote of the Day

“Oh what a tangled web we weave, When first we practise to deceive!” Sir Walter Scott, Marmion, Canto vi. Stanza 17. Scottish author & novelist (1771 – 1832) I’m not trying to deceive anyone, but I do feel like i’m weaving this tangeled web with my life.
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Tell me about us…

1. Who are you? 2. Are we friends? 3. When and how did we meet? 4. Have you ever had a crush on me? 5. Do you still? 6.Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. 7. Describe me in one word. 8. What was your first impression?…
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Excerp from my [now very late] midterm…

Current Mood: 😴tiredCurrent Music: Breaking Benjamin – Diary of Jane
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Confessions

I finally admited to Dave exactly why I hate people. I hate people because I hate myself. But then, its not that I hate myself all of the time. I made the anology of the internet. There are many great things about the internet that I love, but then there…
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Another angry post

At first, I just could not believe that a casual fantasy had come true. Over and over i said to dave, “I just can’t believe this is happening.” Then within a week, I messed it up and it wasn’t happening. Now, there’s not even a fantasy. I will never think…
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Do I use you?

Lately I’ve been wondering if i’m using my friends. First, I must know what it means to use someone. Is using a situation where you take without giving anything back? Or does using include situations where you trade? By “trade” I mean something like “You give me a good conversation…
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Young Adult Angst

I have the distinct impression that i’m going to end up with someone simply because they can deal with me. I’m sure the number of women who can communicate with me and find some way to live a happy life with me are slim-to-nill. Sorry guys, just another, “Fuck me;…
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Describe the early morning…

Since i didn’t sleep at all sunday night, on Monday morning I went out to the lakeshore to watch the sunrise. Here’s how I described the morning near the lake: “There’s a battle above me for dominance of the sky. A lavender sheet holds the moon on one side, while…
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Fuck me; shit.

The one time i try to be like “David DeAngelo” and I fuck up something important to me. I guess I just didn’t realize what the fuck was going on between us. Maybe a class in Interpersonal Communication will be good for me. Divine knows that I need to learn…
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