I dont like being here at home anymore! Jamieson and Jon are fun to be around and they challenge me to be a better person. I get the impression, though, that most of the rest of the people at home (including my parents) dont care or dont know. Next summer, Dave and I are getting an apartment in Marquette.
Now, i’m just to the point of having so many different emotions coming at me that i just dont feel ANYTHING; no emotion, only exhaustion. I slept for almost 11 hours last night and still feel crummy.
A friend of mine suggested that i figure out what I want to do and just do it. “Dont keep doing things for other people.” She’s totally right. While i’m living at home, though, i can’t tell if what i’m doing is what I want to do, or what my parents want me to do. I’m pretty sure, though, that this party store job (my second job) is NOT what I want to be doing. I hate doing the work, and i’m not good at it. I’m too scatterbrained to be doing inventory and stocking coolers and stuff. I’m going to tell my boss there that this job isn’t working out and this is the last weekend i can work.
I JUST WANT OUT!
