I just did something i’m not so sure about anymore. I broke up with kelly. During the conversation, she made a comment about how fast i go through girlfriends. I wanted to tell her that she was different. I didn’t say this because i knew she wouldn’t believe me. She has every reason not to believe, but Kelly IS DIFFERENT. I know this becuase i just fell out of my chair and spent the last hour in a ball on the floor crying my eyes out. I have never felt this much pain for another person.
Kelly! I love you! Breaking up with you is the hardest, most painful ordeal i’ve ever been through.
And if kelly is to ever read this…
I care about you. I care about you so much that even now, all i want to do is to find some way to help you feel better. I’m so sorry that it hurts. I believe, though, that another year of me rejecting your advances would feel much worse.
I suppose now, though, i can only hope that my stupidity was worth it, somehow, someway.
I pray to Devine that this pain brings me closer to the growth and maturity that i so desperately need.